I'm so done with my own self-destruction.

I'm done filling my head with doubt and telling myself that I'm not good enough to do something, I don't deserve it, and I shouldn't even try.

I'm done destroying myself with my own mind. I'm done blowing things out of proportion and creating problems that don't even exist. I'm done holding myself back and wasting my time feeling like shit when I could be out doing things before my life ends.

I'm going to go out and get what I want. I'm going to fight for myself.

I'm going to live my life before I die.

Why be sad when you can be happy?

Why be broke when you could get rich?

I think people have an oversimplified perception of what it takes to be successful in reality.

You look at blogs, Youtube videos and posts on Instagram, and envy their large fan base, their seemingly perfect lifestyle, and their ability to always be happy and always take selfies at the perfect angle.

But that is not the whole picture. Believe it or not, there is more to the picture than the square-cropped one they had posted on Instagram.

Being successful does not start with the amount of viewers you have, how nice the lighting in your photos is, or how fancy your camera is.

Being successful starts with an idea: it starts with coming up with something great, being consistent with it, and constantly developing, expanding and improving it as you go.

If you are not actively working towards something, and picking apart the steps necessary to obtain said goal, you will not have it.

You get what you give.

If you want to start your own business, you'd better know the steps backwards and forwards, start reading books by the tons, and save money by the thousands. As time goes on, you can begin small production of different product/services by providing local services for people in your social circle, start selling goods on eBay or Etsy, and purchasing a small amount of business cards.

You can literally start anything, if only you take the first step, and start.

The first step is always the hardest.

But don't be overwhelmed. The next five years of your life will go on whether you spend it busy, working hard and learning about different tricks and trades that will get you to the top, or if you spend it lounging comfortably in your own incompetence.

Sometimes it feels like something's impossible to do when it requires so much consistency and maintenance of motivation. Sometimes when I feel this way, I want to give up.

But then I remember that anything of any value, anything that I really want in life, should be worth all the time, effort and repetition necessary to obtain it.

And then I try one more time.

And then I fail one more time.

And one day, I will try one more time but I will not fail.

And that is why I do not listen to the voices in my head telling me I don't have to keep trying, because it's too hard.

The more you try, the less hard it will become.

Just don't stop.

Self-composed.

I am confident through storm and sea.

I am confident in who I am and who I will be.

I will live my life to it's fullest extent;

I will grab hold of each moment and not wonder where it went.

I will miss you when you're gone but I will love you while you're near.

 I will never forget to treasure you while you're still here.

I will love and breath through every single moment I endeavor. 

And although life may be fleeting, I will be my own forever.

We are our own.

I am my own inspiration.

I am my own hope, my own happiness, my own purpose.

I am responsible for my own fulfillment.

I am guiding my own footsteps;

I am carving my own footprints into the grounds I choose to walk on.

I belong to myself and I crave my own success.

Time is Money

Our lives are ending one minute at a time...

This moment you're living right now? It's going to end.

Your time is not infinite,

every minute you live through will pass, and you'll never get it back.

...so make it a good moment.

Make your moments ones filled with passion,

keep your mind at peace despite what the current circumstances may be.

Do something with each moment that will make future moments better, for you and for others.

....do something, be someone.

Go chase your dreams, because they're not going to come chasing after you.

Go apply for that job you want even though you think you don't stand a chance.

Go ask him/her for their number, don't wait around for them to ask you.

Learn how to play that one instrument, write that one book you should've started months ago, learn that one HTML coding, that one foreign language.

Time is money.

Make use of this time you were given because it is valuable.

It's (beyond) time to stop wasting it because IT CANNOT BE REPLACED.

Go. The clock is ticking.

...The world won't slow down for you just because you can't keep up.

The Human Race Has Become An Issue.

When I think about what the human race has done to the earth, and what we choose to use our time, words, and actions doing, I am disgusted.

Is this really what the purpose of human beings is? To be jealous and angry towards each other, judging EVERYONE, as we waste our time using the internet to whine about how much we “hate” ourselves and making jokes about how lonely and “useless” we are? staying up-to-date with the latest celebrity gossip and fashion trends, and making sure we have the newest updates on our smartphones, working a job in an office with stuck-up, power-hungry assholes and coming home to a nagging wife who’s cheating on you and screaming kids who just spilled chocolate pudding on the sofa.

We’re full of shit. We’re all so lazy and we don’t even fucking try. I grief for the current state of the human race.

How about we NOT be like this.

Let's strive for something bigger, let's be ourselves, let's stand up for the truth, let's carve our own paths, and work together to become a big, beautiful family on this planet we all call home.

"I'm stupid, I'm fat, I'm annoying, I'm useless."

Maybe so. But guess what?

You don't always have to be that way.

Fucking Fairytale.

Stop expecting life to be a fucking fairytale.

Stop being lazy and full of bullshit excuses for everything you do.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself about the results you don't get from the work you don't do.

Stop expecting people to be exactly what you want them to be,
stop expecting situations to turn out how you want them to,
and stop getting so goddamn upset about everything that doesn't go your way. It's pitiful as fuck.

Life is not a fucking fairytale.

Things aren't going to be the way you want them to be.

People aren't going to be exactly who you want them to be.

Stop lying to yourself.

It's all in your head.

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD.

You become what you make yourself become.

Life is life is life is life.

Deal with it or shut the fuck up and quit bothering other people with your pathetic bullshit.

-note to self

Life is good.

Did you read that?

Life is good.

Read it again.

Remember it.

Believe it.

Embrace this truth.

Work on changing the things in your life that you CAN change.

You do have some control in your life. Take it.

Stop complaining about your lack of skills if you don't devote time to perfecting them.

You're not good at drawing?

Of course you're not, you never draw.

You don't have a good job?

Of course you don't, you never applied to any.

Stop lying to yourself. No one believes your bullshit.

Go out and get what you want out of life.

Get Inspired

What is it about coffee shops that motivates me to write and draw?

Maybe I shouldn't question it.

I think it's all about the environment. Different environments inspire different people. 

The vibe I get from coffee shops are so comfortable and poetic. And that is the environment I am the most inspired by.

That along with parks, the beach, and basically anywhere between the hours of 12am-3am.

The peace and quiet makes it so much easier to listen to my own voice.

This makes me wonder what different kinds of environments inspire different types of people. And what determines whether we're inspired or not?

Seriously though, where ever it is for you, go find it. It's such a motivating feeling and it helps me push myself so much further. Search for it. Don't stop until you find it. You'll be doing yourself a huge favor.

Go get inspired to change the world with all you have to offer it.

Stop making excuses. It's not that hard.

My Thoughts About Priorities

People's priorities are all over the place.

My mother sees me being bitter and selfish consistently, yet she confronts at me about things like not cleaning my room.

My room is a mess, but so is my life. 

How can I justify making time to clean something so insignificant as my room if I have yet to find enough time to clean up my life?

It doesn't make sense to me to clean up my room and make it seem like I have my life together when I don't.

If I am really a mess, my room will represent it.

If I don't have all my shit together, cleaning my room and making it seem as if I do is fake and misleading in my eyes.

I will not go out of my way to make things seem a way that they are not.

Such updates, so blogger

Today I bought a scented candle and that makes me sincerely happy.

Life has been messy for me the past few months. But I'm in the process of getting things in order so I'm ready to be the kick-ass blogger I should've been the past 7 months in my absence.

Some of the best things that've happened since april:

• learning to love myself and not let people push me around anymore
• my obsession with coffee has gone off the charts
• I feel talented at drawing and will officially call myself an artist
• I recently got a job as an Office Assistant and I'm making hella bank
• I went to Orlando earlier this month and saw PARAMORE

http://instagram.com/p/gX9WXxFZnS/

Ok well that's it for now. I'm gonna spend the rest of my night on tumblr.

Why haven't I been on here in so long?

Life gets in the way, I suppose.

Later tonight I will be posting an update so set your timers and get your popcorn ready.

...cause it's totally that big of a deal.

peace